When your back is up against the wall; you really feel you are failing on all levels….
‘Worry’….have you ever thought about the meaning behind common ‘Worry’ quotes. You’ll Worry yourself to death.
Admitting I was stressed, due to work relationships, escalating work loads made me feel…I am struggling to even write the word, embarrassed, a failure that I wasn’t coping with every day working tasks. Further not admitting, accepting this had spilled over into my personal life, not being able to sleep, eat, leave my home, personal space.
I am physically, psychologically and emotionally drained. I fight to sleep with ease, waking with anxiety, worse my mind race’s, trying to manage my thoughts and actions.
….All because of words and energy….negative language, negative energy.
So what have I learnt from what I call an horrific experience. Protect your energy, recognise and see your intuition…Your intuition will show true colours, truth of what will come and what will be.
I saw the dark, erratic energy in this person, internally and externally. I persued it by questioning others and sharing my thoughts, reasoning continously.
My intuition gave me restless, nights and discomfort as I went about my daily business. With a depth so strong, it let a feeling of unease ripple through my mind body and soul. However in the reality, I ignored it, ignored it all.
Although I am battered and bruised inside and out…it has come to an end…a brutal end. Still wanting to walk away, still wanting to just let go and just for the emotional pain and anxiety to release me from my sleepless nights, my energy less days.
I exit this situational depression, with an email…I would like to state the following, that created ‘work related stress’…
And now my time is done, I will resign and move on….without a regular income, without employment…But reassurance my peace of mind and my well-being is the greatest thing.
Blessings needed, used to keep me well and healthy. Meditation, Walks, Fasting…most of all listening to my own truth and following my intuition..this is a process…Sometimes, I hear songs, with words, meanings that resignate with what I am going through, or how I am feeling…
Just to be clear, not everyone is in a place to leave their job, walk away…
Go to your GP, be honest and tell him, her how you are feeling. For me, I was literally going out of my mind…the stress was immense physically, psychologically, emotionally I couldn’t, didn’t have the space to eat, drink, sleep, carry out daily tasks. Every day is a journey, wounds will heal, thoughts will fade, energy will return.